Although the shooting took place near three months ago, it might as well have been just three hours ago for Buffalo Police Officer Carl Andolina.
The December 5th shooting in downtown Buffalo left Officer Patty Parete paralyzed, and her partner, Andolina with bullet wounds in his arm and his neck.
His psychological wounds from that night run even deeper.
Andolina says he's dealing with "survivor's guilt."
Scott Brown: At times, have you wished it was you instead of her?
"I've gone through that in my head a lot," says Andolina. "Other people have talked to me about that, that I shouldn't think that way, but yeah, I would rather it have been me."
Brown: Do other cops tell you that you did as much as you could?
"Oh, yeah," he says. "They use the words a lot that I'm not comfortable with."
"Yeah, but I don't think of myself that way," Andolina says.
Andolina says his focus right now is the big fundraiser he's chairing for his partner. It will take place on March 31st at the Buffalo Convention Center.
Brown: Do you feel in a way it's your responsibility to make sure she's cared for when she comes back home?
"Yes, I was her partner that night," Andolina says. "I want to make sure she's taken care of the same way that I'm taken care of."
Brown: It kind of sounds like a marriage, 'in sickness and health, for better or for worse.'
"That's what partners are," he says. "You're both looking out for each other, so that you can both go home at night."
In addition to the fundraiser at the Convention Center, Andolina is also working on getting a handicapped-accessible home built for Parete for when she returns to Western New York.
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